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The story is told of three women washing clothes. A passerby asked each what she was doing.

“Washing clothes” was the first answer.

“A bit of household drudgery” was the second.

“I am mothering three young children who some day will fill important and useful spheres in life, and wash day is part of my grand task in caring for thes souls who shall live forever” was the third.

The Shaping of  a Chrisain Family, Elisabeth Elliot

Which woman are you?


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A Sacred Burden

The process of shaping the child, shapes also the mother herself. Reverence for her sacred burden calls her to all that is pure and good, that she may teach primarily by her own humble, daily example. Elisabeth Elliot, The Shaping of a Christian Family

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  “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” 2 Corinthians 12:9

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Have you ever opened your eyes to the graces of a new and glorious day only to proclaim deep with in your heart to God that you just don’t know if you can do it again today instead of trusting and submitting to His promise… “my grace is sufficient for you”? Even you my exhausted and overwhelmed child and mother to my precious children. “My burden is light and my yoke is easy” How often do our own children tell us “but momma I can’t do it!” and we reply to their weakness with love “Yes you can, I will help you” only to be saddend by their  unwillingness to allow you the access to their heart, to lift their burden and guide them through their weakness.   I realize now how often I cry out to God in the morning and then reject His help, His guidance, His grace for me through out the day. It is not that He is not supplying me with enough, for God does not lie, it is I who has not trusted in His promise, been humbled before His throne of grace and displayed a broken and contrite heart before the Almighty God who is sufficient for ALL of my needs and is my power in weakness, even in my motherhood inadequacies.  Each morning we are told that “The steadfast love of the LORD never ceases;  his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.” Lamentations 3:21-23 and yet we so often live seperated from this reality; from His reality by choice… it is a conscious choice we decide to make with the wakening of the new day.

Grace is not something we can earn, it is a gift. Often times for me I pray for His grace and then I try to earn it somehow through out the day. In order for us to receive His unmerited favor we must choose to become weak, to be humbled. My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in what? In strength? In pride or arrogance? In weakness! His grace is sufficient for those who are willing to make themsleves weak so that His power can be made perfect through them, dispite them, giving all glory and honor to Him. The power to live a ressurected life comes from Him and Him alone… John proclaims this weakness, this humility, this humbleness in John 3:30 when he says “He must increase, but I must decrease.”

Listen to this quote by C.H. Spurgeon:

“Observe how weak we are, how strong He is, how proud we are, how condescending He is, how erring we are, and how infallable He is, how changing we are, and how immutable He is; how provoking we are, and how forgiving He is. Observe how in us there is only ill, and how in Him there is only good. Yet our ill but draws His goodness forth, and still He blesseth. Oh! What a rich contrast!

Oh observe! But we don’t observe it often enough how weak we are and how strong He is and that is why I believe for myself I miss out of His boundless supply of grace for each day.

“God opposes the proud, but give grace to the humble.” James 4:6

He will not pour out His grace upon us so long as we feel as though we deserve only good things to come our way. It is very easy to deceive ourselves into thinking we are a humble people but when things are going our way but when our peace is disturbed and challenged by everyday or life changing trials do we become angry? Why? Did we feel in some way an heir of arrogance in that we didn’t deserve for that to just happen to us? In that sliver of a moment did we humble ourselves  and receive His grace? I know that I am tempted all day to believe that I deserve good things to happen to me and so when they are confronted I become quickly irritated and I ask the fist shaking question… why? Why me? I didn’t deserve that! 

Oh to walk the road pathed in grace, to become less for the sake of Him becoming more! To embrace weakness and humility for the glory and power of God to radiate through our broken vessels our broken lives. It is in our brokeness that we find His strength, it is in being humbled before grace that He is made Lord of our lives.

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“I must get down on my knees and own that I am less than nothing, seek God, not joy;

consent to suffer, not cry for relief.” 

Elizabeth Prentiss

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This morning I plead with Him for a bright and shining spirit, to be filled with the joy of His Spirit before little feet begin scampering down the hall and little mouths beg to be fed. I am just not feeling it this morning and so must surrender myself into His hands, to be led and consumed by His leading not my own. I am tired.

It feels hard even to breath on my own… the sprint of life has taken my breathe away and find myself grasping for air this morning… but I am reminded to breath slow and simply… inhale… and exhale…


He promises… in red…

“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”

Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weakness, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

2 Corinthians 12:9


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Well we had an exhaustive, difficult, blessed, amazing, eventful and holy week! Holy in the sense that it was “set apart” to reflect on the resurrection of Christ through much time spent in the word, in pray and in daily devotions and activities that draw us closer to His love and to eachother. It was a very difficult week with adjusting to Expresso’s new outside of the home job… some days barely getting to connect for more than 30 minutes at the most (that is really hard), early nights, exhausted nights, new routines and less time to spend as a family. I feel the pressure to be more productive at home although I don’t necessarily feel the desire to be more  productive. I am praying over this week, that the Lord will be gracious to us and enable us to keep our eyes, our minds and our hearts on Christ and to be more intentional and less selfish with our time so that we may fulfill each little facet of attention that we can in each day. The kids also had a rough time adjusting to their daddy being gone all day and then not being able to spend the amount of time that he has been able to in the past, evenings seem to be the hardest. Where he as once able to spend 15-30 minutes reading to them each night now is only an occassional thing depending on the evening and events and where he as leading morning worship each morning is now taken over by me.  Eli has been getting up in the mornings just to catch some time with his daddy, it is sweet. He spends the early morning with him and then, if I get up to, we go back to bed together for a little bit, but I am not sure how this week will go since we are back in school.

We all praise God for this new change and we continue with more zeal than last week to embrace it and seek to glorify Him in the midst of it. On another note we had the special blessing of experiences the birth of some of our closest friends precious baby girl! It was amazing and the Lord taught me so much through it all that I hope to share later. My friend went natural which is something that I am praying for the strength to do when my turn comes to labor.

This week I am really hoping that I can get a lol done each day and with a joyful and peaceful attitude among the trials and stressful moments with in. I am needing to figure out how to implement certain things into our days and how to take over in my own way our family worship times and history lessons that are usually a daddy thing. I have some ideas. I also feel the strong urgent need to begin a more living faith with in our home, such as what we did this week with Holy week. Each day was soaked in a kind of living faith that could not be missed nor ignored but rather radiant and thoroughly enjoyed and longed for. I am praying for direction in that area.

Just seeking to make the most of this life, this time for His glory and His glory alone and in that reality I find unmistakedly JOY.

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